Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Lonely, Paranoid

Well, home alone... Rebecca left town today for week. She's spending time with family. And now for some reason when I'm home alone in my apartment, I get this sense of paranoia... Been happening ever since I learned, or re-learned, about the fate of my family... Dr. M and I are both sure now that part, if not all, of my amnesia is caused by that night. I mean losing your entire family in a single night... Dr. M speculates that is the reason behind my massive memory gap. But back onto the paranoia, it's probably only my mind eff'ing with me.

I think the news has opened a tiny portion of my mind... I can remember that house now...
A very old house, only one I lived in up to that point. That's most of what I remember, I mean I'm not going to describe it on this blog... at least not right now... maybe at a later date. I'm still bugged about the fact that I cannot remember anything at all about Christmas '97... I mean that was my senior year, and I don't remember anything... I couldn't of just been out of town... there would have been something... anything... at a later date to describe where I was... it's not just like the news would just forget about me... but that is what it seems like... The only evidence that I have that indicates that I was actually part of that family was the quote I posted a few days ago... that's it... That's not very comforting... Dr. M said he might have something to discuss with me after my appointment Friday.

Enough on this tonight... I should hopefully have something to say after my session with Dr. M.
Till then,

-Ishamael

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