I have no idea what that last post was about, I don't remember typing it out or even posting it. The only way I know that it was me, is that Rebecca was here that night. She said I was basically in a trance-like state while typing it. I wouldn't respond to any direct interaction. I was like that for about an hour. Its not very comforting... at all. I guess Dr. M's treatment sparked something. Didn't help either that I've been jammed at work lately. Haven't had anytime to discuss it with Dr. M. It seems to me that it was a sort of... memory... that bubbled its way to the surface. A memory of the night my family died... of me watching as my house burned to the ground. I don't know what to think... it's crazy to think that I was... forced... to watch that night... and that I wasn't alone that night, that my kidnapper was there with me... and I did nothing... at all.
The next session is planned for Monday. Rebecca and I are heading toward Lake Tahoe this weekend to take some stress off, should be nice. Couple hours of driving to get there though. But it will be good to have some time to relax for once. Time to just have some fun. I'll probably be back Sunday night, might get a post up then, if not it'll be up Monday night. Till then,
-Ishamael
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